May 29, 2008

  • Shattered Mirrors

    I once dropped a mirror more than 5 years ago and it shattered, like many dreams I have had.


     


    Circumstances in life are not always easy to take or understand, but nonetheless present themselves in our lives everyday. Some small and insignificant and some large and troubling, but in the end an outcome happens. It is not important to concentrate of what the outcome maybe or how a situation will turn out. It is not important to think about what to do is the outcome is positive or negative. What is important is to be in the moment and concentrate on what is in front of us at that that given time. Instead of thinking of the outcomes, think of how to go about what stand in front of us.


     


    Life changes on a daily basis and we do not have control. Things happen for a reason, but are not always easy to accept. We can, however, accept what is happening and confront issues and focus on what is happening, instead of questioning it. The sooner the acceptance, the sooner the peace of mind and clarity comes into focus. To accept the present time is to live in the present time. To not accept what is present is to live in the past; and just as the past grows further and further away, so do those who dwell there; like a ship fading into the sunset.


     


    We often question why things turn out the way they do or happen the way they do, but that is not the attitude we should have. To ask, “What if” or “Could if” is to not accept life as it unfolded, but to find an excuse not to want to move on. We chose to sit in our messes or to clean them up. It is a decision to move on or to linger, but life will move on with or without you. “Time heals wounds” some may say, but it is not true. Time is some that constantly flows like a river. Like the water in a river, just as life changes and moves. Slowly at times, rapid at others, uncontrollable quickly, and even clam and gentle it flows. We cannot as the river to stop or to flow, we can only move with it, if we choose. We can hang on an embankment, or a fallen over tree, but if we do, we cannot see what is farther down stream. To explore further down stream is to accept the flow of life and see what lies ahead.


     


    The mirror shattered into many pieces and what once was one reflection became hundreds.


     


    The path we take in life is decided by us. Do as you please and it will be done, but accept the consequences of your actions. Life was not meant to be fair, nor will it; it is what it is and it will be just that. It may be bumpy or smooth, high or low, wide or narrow, but each path leads to an end. Some paths branch off to others and some dead end and force us to back track, somewhat like a maze. Until we run it we don’t know what to do or where to go, but nonetheless we need to move to discover anything, and to discover is to learn. To learn is to be enlightened. To apply enlightenment is to show wisdom, but not always done.


     


    I picked up one piece of the mirror and as time past it turned into a new mirror itself.


     


    Maturity is not something that happens for all at once or even at all, but is something that takes place when we are ready to accept it. When younger, comfortable, confident, egotistical, driven, and going full speed, I felt invincible. Nothing could stop me or slow me down. I was right and didn’t care other wise. I had to be the best, the fastest, the most creative, the hardest working, but I look back and think, “For what?” All for me I can now see. But what good is it to be everything and anything, if you are alone? Companionship is something we crave and want, we weren’t meant to be alone.


     


    I dropped a mirror a few days ago, another dream shattered. I stand looking at the pieces yet again. So many reflections to choose from, and I picked one up. I hope this turns into another new mirror.